Return from my Hiatus

So I haven't posted since August...horrible at this. School has been going well, well until this week that is. Every single day was a battle to get my kids to follow even the simplest of instructions. I feel like a broken record, repeating the same 5 words on a cycle, over and over. I reached the end of my rope today, we had a discussion and I may or may not have raised my voice. Ok, I did, I yelled, which is not me at all. I waited 5 minutes, calmed down and apologized to the class. I got through my whole talk, told them how I felt, we talked about what we could do to rectify the situation and all was good...until the lip quiver. (I have been cursed with my mothers emotional triggers and I cry during commercials.) Thanks to that curse I cried in front of my kids today. Its been quite the year for me. October 1st I threw up in front of my kids, later that month I fell off a desk, and then February 10th I cried. I am a stellar teacher.

On to other things, I hate being a grown up! Why I didn't listen when adults told me adulthood was not easy I'll never know. As a teen my parents made all my appointments, eye doctor, dentist, and so on. My dad took care of all the insurance claims, the filing and reimbursements, taxes, state and federal. Now I'm on my own, making my own appointments, dealing with prescriptions, insurance claims, and all on my own. $200 at the pharmacy(I am a walking pharmacy!), $100 at the dentist, $200+ for new frames and lenses, life is expensive. So much responsibility, not worth it! One thing I am grateful for, my dad still helps with the taxes! I am glad to be in a new phase of life, its fun, and things are interesting but there are days I'd love to go back. Wouldn't that just be so much easier!

But then again, going back is not an option. So follow up question, then, what's next? Who knows, but I sure hope its good!